its been a while since i blogged.
its been about 3 months since i first blogged for this year.

up till now, i still have no idea what im doing for the past last 3 months.
i've seem to lost most of my excitement already.
years ago, when i was about to go overseas, there was this excitement in me.
but just a few weeks ago, before my korea trip, i wasnt ready for it at all, and i only bothered packing few hours before the departure. the excitement factor just wasn't there. it felt like another thing again. however as the days gone by in korea, it proved to be extremely wrong. i learnt much from the koreans from ksa, not only their culture, language but also the way they live their lives. I really enjoyed their hostel stay, and i really liked their school culture and framework, especially banning computers and making students sleep at 12am. In singapore, we have too many pampered kids parents who care too much for their kids. the students in korea stay at the domitories 24/7 throughout the school term. in singapore, we are asked to go back every weekend because our parents "miss us" and they often call up the school for seemingly minor issues. as for the singaporean kids, we keep on relying on our parents for so many things, its time to grow up and get independent. it really pisses me off everytime i see students complain over minor matters, such as mosquito bites, or lousy food, or bed being too hard, room too hot, all of these stupid matters. people even choose to go out for meals, just because they keep complaining that hostel food sucks, hello, you are paying for hostel so just bear with it. why waste your parent's hard earned money on stuff that you dont need? stop complaining already, especially those whiners, just accept what you have, stop making so much noise over such matters. i really don't know why, but i think im being too critical about everything, especially this year. i used to not care about anything around me, but now, when i look around, i get extremely pissed and wish to do something. comparing us to the koreans, in school, they do not argue with the teacher for deadlines, and when quizzes and tests come, they just take it, they dont ask for extensions and push backs. how about us in nus high? students constantly ask the teacher to end class early, stop giving homework, have less quizzes and tests, push back deadlines and so many other stupid stuff. my question would then be, what the hell are you doing in this school? if you cannot cope with the amount of workload than just leave. stop arguing with the teachers, they also have a job to do. it seems to me that the academic standard of our school is decreasing a lot, and this has to do with a lot of our whiney students, complaining about everything. and for all of these stupid things i have observed in my 4+years in nus high, i admit that i have done them before, but from now on, never i will do such things. the korean students in ksa are really a disciplined bunch of people, and i really respect the students there. the students study, the moment they have free time, but our school students would just stay back to play soccer for like 3 hours, complete waste of time, if it was cca i would understand. even in hostel, people are just wasting their time away doing nothing productive, when time can actually be spent studying. the students in ksa dont have the time, and they really treasure the amount of free time they have, but for us, we have so much free time that we can go out of school and waste unnecessary money for anything under the sun. i would really say that our school needs a lot of improvement, especially the students. i really dont know if its the culture here or not that is causing all of these, but from what i have observed over at korea, i'm extremely determined to change myself as an individual.

as of now, im starting to regret whatever i have done so far, and i have been constantly asking myself if all of my past decisions were right or not. thoughts of leaving council has always been floating in my mind, and i really have no idea what to do with it. thoughts of changing school was already present during the end of year 2, and its back again. however, the step has already been taken and there's no path of return. i just hate it when there's so many thoughts floating through my head, and i keep thinking so much that i just ignore all of them, and the cycle keeps repeating because there's just so much happening around. i believe i was letting out quite a bit of fustration above...

anyway, i really enjoyed the 1 week march holiday spent in KSA, busan, korea.
it was one of the most enlightening and enjoyable trip i have ever had in my 16 years of life. if any of you korean students happen to see this, i really want to say thanks for hosting me, especially yeosan my buddy and the rest of you guys there.
i'm really glad that i went to ksa for exchange and not other schools, because you guys have really shown me a lot and i have really learnt much from just the 1 week i was there:)

hi:)